Victory is mine!!

Last week I wrote about hiding my food binges. I felt a bit drained after writing that. It was a big hurdle for me to even admit "out loud" so to speak. I know that no one really reads this blog, I am new at it and honestly, I would be surprised if I did have readers, because really... what's so interesting about yet another Token fat girl struggling with her weight and trying to work her way through adulthood? I guess I just hope that my daily struggles can help someone see what may cause their own struggles and maybe make someone laugh or feel happy from time to time?

I sort of felt like I didn't have anything to say for a few days after that confession. I just buckled down and went about my weekend and tried to make good choices.

As for my weekend, my mileage goals are coming along nicely and I am surprised at how quickly I am improving my fitness. I am up to 2 miles without feeling I am getting tired until the last few minutes. My original plan was to track my mileage using Leslie Sansone "Walk away the Pounds" videos and walking outside as well. So far however, I have only been able to use the videos. It's been rainy here in central Illinois for the 2 weeks and looks to continue that way through the month, sigh. I am not hardcore enough to workout in the rain thank-you-very-much-no-thanks.

I really enjoy those videos, man! It seems so nerdy to me, but I like how chipper Leslie is, without being annoying, to me anyways. I always feel so good about myself when I finish a video. I was trying to do a 1 mile video, twice a day, but I find that I can power through the 30 minute, 2 mile, video just fine after a week. I am sweaty and smelly, but I am DOING IT!!.
And just for a bonus, if ya'll don't have exercise tv or on demand cable etc. Here is a link to some of the YouTube video's I found, they are my favorite ones, a little more modern than some of the other youtubes videos and they are all posted by the same girl:
One, Two and Three Mile Leslie Sansone Videos
I hope you like it, if you try it!

I feel positive. I had the chance to binge again last night and I didn't. I was very proud of myself for not giving in to the urge or the temptation. It's an odd thing, I know that if I binge, I am more likely to do it again in the following days, so stopping at one is very important to me. I had a variety of foods last night, lots of roasted veggies, some crackers for crunch, some creamy cheese and a small treat of 2 Girl Scout Thin Mints.
I think it's really important to me to have the variety of textures and flavors to avoid the binge. If I have all that, and still within my points, then I am much more satisfied than say, if I had even a large bowl of pasta. Variety, people!